Sometimes before we feel better we have to feel worse for a while. And if you are in the worse feeling sensation of being alive right now, avoiding the blessings that are within and all around you in order to make someone else happy or make yourself miserable, you don't have to know why you created a story that is not working for you, but you have to be aware in order to make the change. It may be a really old story, & if you look around you may notice you are the star of your own movie. And the movie might feel like a nightmare, but that is only because you are on the verge of a breakthrough.If this sounds like you--if you are sick and tired of living with an eating disorder, compulsive overeating, anorexia, bulimia or an addiction to anything other than that which brings you tremendous joy and breath, I invite you to keep reading.
Know that you are not alone. You are never alone. I am going to keep my name confidential, but invite you to post here ANYTIME you need to reach out and feel connected.
Affirm with me now:
I am not my food story. I am not my disease. I am not the disorder. I am not even the thoughts that cause me to go against myself, nor am I the belief that cause me to struggle so.
I am healthy, happy, radiant. I am a blessing to the world. Every ounce of energy deserves to be in this world. My heart is precious I am now ready and to open to receive the blessings that are within and all around me.
Today I will do what it takes to recover. I will be gentle with my body. I love my body. I love and approve of myself. I digest and assimilate all that I need to know. I release the past with joy.
I invite you to challenge yourself for the next 30 days to keep coming back here to integrate your radiant light and step into your power. If you have been lost for a long time, I promise you this moment offers you the opportunity to awaken and move forward away from being mean to yourself or hard on your body into a more effortless, enjoyable, experience of this radiant life.
The most important part of the process is to breathe. Your only responsibility in this life is to breathe. You are safe in the present moment. Your power lies in the now...
...where there is the ability to make a change.
As Michael Jackson says:
"take a look in the mirror and make a change"
You didn't get where you are all at once and don't expect to awaken and be able to perfectly recover your life all today. You can, however take each step in the direction of recovering your life, love and joy as you take the next 30 days to Recover Your Radiance.
Day One to Recover Your Radiance:
1. Start where you are.
Accept yourself. Accept every ounce of you. All of the energy inside of you is necessary to get you to where you want to be. Go within and take a look at what's there. It might not feel ok, but it's gotta be in order for you to transcend the limiting beliefs and ultimately transform your energy off of your own story and out there into the world where lies your life.
2. Affirm your willingness and ability to be happy and healthy.
If you can look around and see other happy and healthy people out there, you can have it too. There is no reason why you should spend one more moment walking around feeling sorry for yourself. The time is now to let yourself see what you want and to move forward towards creating a happy and healthy life filled with radiant well being.
3. Forgiveness
Before you can truly let go and move forward, you have to be where you are, forgive what no longer is serving you, or leave behind the thoughts that keep you sick by letting go just a bit more. Perhaps try a forgiveness meditation, or sit for a moment and go within. Go to a safe and sacred space in your mind. Connect with a part of you that feels shameful, guilty, regret, remorse. Stay there for a moment and shine your light on the feelings that are there. From there, allow the light to become a fire, and burn away the qualities of the shame, the lies of the stagnantion, any resistance that exists. It is not true! Let yourself physically, mentally and emotionally rest in the sensation of release for a while. Fully believe that you deserve full recovery and that it is available to you. It is on it's way now as you continue recovering your radiance from the lies of the eating disorder.
4. Faith.
Trust the process. When you let go and allow yourself to be where you are, in the discomfort, you may notice blessings showing up to remind you of your radiance. Have you ever felt so badly about yourself and gone out into the world despite yourself, only to be told you look amazing? Do you think you know what's right for you? Do you think by holding on to your eating disorder that you are putting your trust in a Higher Power? It is not necessary, but recommended that you allow a light to come in and guide you towards your radiant life. There is a flow of well being that is waiting for you, and by continuing reading here, you are allowing yourself ot move forward towards a more effortless flow of living a radiant life. I guarantee you the best is yet to come!
5. Keep coming back here as well as visit my other blog which is filled with valuable self-help tools, including meditations, affirmations, prayers, processes and exercises to guide you in your recovery.
May you be blessed beyond belief simply because you exist and rest peacefully in the sensation that all is well. As I inhale, I take in new life and as I exhale, I release negative energy and allow well being to flow to me now. I breathe deeply now and move forward on the path to recovering my radiance. Thank you, God! And so it is!
